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Hi! I'm Strawberry!
I'm always sweet but sometimes sour.
I have a husband, Honeydew. We live with my mum, Banana and my dad Papaya
Cheers! We are the awesomest food ever.
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I live in my own little world at times. I love animals, flowers, pretty clothes, heels, my family and friends, my food and everything that makes the world beautiful. I love all consumable foods especially my chocolates. I am not crazy. I am simply different. I'm also utterly obsessed with mermaids and I dream of becoming one someday.
I HATE copycats and spammers. So, if you're one of them, it's a sign that you should stay away. This is where I express most of me, so either you accept it or you don't.
♥ 06.09.1994 ♥
ALONE
It has been sometime and I feel as though I'm alone in this world of endless possibilities and circumstances. I feel like no one really understand you at times. There were times when I wanted to express myself so badly but couldn't because I wasn't capable of expressing myself to the public. It's hard, when you feel like you have to but then you remember that you have to hold yourself in. Even in things that does not involve emotions or feelings. I always hoped that I could break out of my shell, be a bolder and a stronger person with a higher self esteem. Someone capable of speaking in public, someone capable of expressing their thoughts in a perfect way and someone who speaks well, without being nervous. That's just everything I'm not. I'm afraid of public speaking, hell I'm even afraid of initiating a conversation with a single stranger. I can't even hold a conversation with a person who approaches me first. I'm not the kind of person who could be outgoing. This sucks. A lot. Especially when you have group assignments.
For the past few weeks, it seems that life here has been quite hectic and sometimes a little irritating I would admit. But honestly I'm sure a lot of people will find university or college life somehow annoying at times. Especially when it comes to people you have to socialize with. I've been here for more than two months and I certainly do not find myself liking the people here. Most of them. Even the person I hang out with most of the time. I don't know whether I hang out with only her because she's the only one whom I find less annoying or because one is already enough to annoy the crap out of me. Why isn't this shit like high school? I gotta admit that I like high school life a lot more compared to the life now. Probably because everyone in high school is pretty much still innocent in some ways? Maybe. Cause we were all in the same situation back then.
But I guess things changes with time. You have to adapt with changes or else you'd be left behind. Though I'm not keen on the changes around me I do accept them as an essential part of life. Nothing lasts forever and I guess you just have to go with it. But I really really wish that someone nice and kind will be sent to me. Someone who has more in common with me and thinks in a somewhat same manner as me. I need someone who can at least understand what I'm trying to say everytime I find it hard to express myself. I used to be able to see and keep people like that but there's none where I'm at now?
Hopefully I'll find one soon. Like how easy it was getting one during NS. To ease my homesickness. I really really miss home a lot. Home as in people who make me feel like I'm home wherever I am. I don't need to be at home. I just need to be around people I'm familiar with. People I'm keen on seeing. My parents, my family, my friends and even colleagues... How I wish I could just see them whenever I want to. But no. I'm just too far away right now.
I really really need to find someone who can at least relate to me. Someone I can confide in when I have problems and someone who can give me comfort when I am down. I feel so lonely. I really do. Even though I'm surrounded by a lot of people and I have friends to hang out with it does not stop me from feeling lonely. That, is the worst to me. Feeling lonely even when you have a group of people to hang out with.
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